Wishful thinking in action

             The only thing stopping you from achieving your goals and dreams are your own fears. 

I AM Esther Linssen| operasinger, Artist & Certified Life Coach.

I could tell you all about my diploma’s and strong suits and what kind of life coach I am. And I Will. It’s all on this website. You probably also want to know about my methods. I use several. Whatever suits you best. But to truly reach out to you I must tell you a whole different story. I have lived through a lot of bigger and smaller traumatic events in my life such as Divorce, rape, marriage, raising a child with a brain tumor leaving him to be chronically ill, raising another three toddlers at the same time, living with depressed husband and on top of that almost loosing my house to the bank. Yes! It was devastating! And yes I ended up in a Burn-out having eczema all over my body playing bloody candy crush on the couch all day. Who wouldn’t?! But I got back on my feet being financially and psychologically healthy and happy. In the process of my do – it- yourself recovery, well on my way, I met my greatest coach. A horse called Jonkfried. I was send out to do a course of personal leadership by my employer The Dutch National Opera. My coach Esmee Olthuis worked with horses. Jonkfried showed me he was not going to do anything for me unless I landed into my Essential Self and expanded from within, making a connection with all that is around me and therefore with him. Taking up this space. I was walking next to him, without a leash mind you. The assignment was to make him run with me. After some useless effort there it was. This one look from one eye. Suddenly I felt it. This enormous space I felt inside me enabling me to connect. He seemed to be asking me: What do you want? And I reacted from within without using words: Lets run! And we did! He followed me everywhere, jumped over a fallen tree. I felt like Winnetou! I felt such incredible joy. Afterwards Jonkfried placed his head loving in my neck. After that I had to make a work of Art that would express my experience. I wanted to make something to resemble the limitless space. It is what Martha Beck calls wordlessness. The sense of Freedom and connection. That space inside me and I felt the desire to start living from it. I had found my essential self. How do you navigate in a limitless space? In what direction do you move? I became a tracker to create my way. Using my inner compass. Asking myself questions like: What do I love? If the world as I know it seized to exist, what would I do? This led to me renovating my house, creating art with clover and ultimately to renovating my whole life. I found out that if you change from within the world around you changes with you. People react differently. You are able to make the right choices and you overcome blockages and fears, you will be able to face problems and challenges of life. Gaining confidence and trust. But most of all you will allow yourself to be happy in the process and live a creative life. I would love to help you make changes to do so by the way. To become a tracker like me. Maybe this Blog will inspire you to start living your own creative life.